Humans Do Change

Today, I sent apology messages to some old friends.

When I was younger, I believed that cutting people off was the only way a relationship could end. I firmly believed that was how I could protect myself. And judging by the mental state I was in back then, maybe it really was.

But as the years passed and I grew a little older, I came to see just how selfish that behavior had been.

Sending apologies now, not knowing if they'll even be read, made my heart race with anxiety. And I couldn’t help but wonder: was this how my friends felt when I suddenly shut them out? That thought made me feel all the more sorry.

I used to believe people never change.
But now, I think that if you're patient enough to wait and watch, people absolutely can.
No one deserves to be stripped of the chance to grow.
I do regret realizing this so late, but there’s no point in dwelling on what’s already passed.

Back then, I did what felt like my best. Now, this is the best I can do.

Even if I don’t receive a reply, I hope my heart still reaches them.

Journal Entry, February 25th, 2024